Long Cold Nights

Well it's official. Winter is rapidly setting in here at River View. And with Josh trucking again it makes for some cold nights. Yeah I know, heaters but they just aren't the same. Not going to lie bloggers, I miss him something fierce. I know he'll come home to me, but it's the constant goodbyes that are hard. While I know it's temporary it doesn't mean that it doesn't still hurt to let him go. Even the kids are feeling the affects of Daddy being gone. Sam is acting out more, and I know it's an adjustment period, but it's still not easy. Clay misses his Daddy cuddle time as he refuses to cuddle with me. He just wants to wiggle and move in Mommy's arms. Daddy on the other hand, he happily fall asleep in .2 seconds flat.

I know there are so many people who are out there that have family gone for months on end, and I'm not lessening their hardship in the least. There is just something about a trucker's wife that people don't realize. There are many dangerous jobs, I get that. But trusting the life of your spouse to strangers driving a huge truck in bad conditions on little to no sleep is very difficult knowing that if an accident happens, they either come home unscathed or they don't come home at all. It certainly makes for some long cold nights. But I also know I have to look at the positive. Things like Sam just turned 3 and Josh was able to be here for her birthday. Lizard is getting married soon. Author is back in the Pacific Northwest. Pixie and Mouse are doing great. Clay is already almost 1 and he just started crawling. How crazy is that?

The holidays are just around the corner too. And while it might be long and cold nights, we all have things to look forward to and hope for. Now that is something to get through the cold nights. Hope. It's a never ending, brightly burning thing that is nearly impossible to extinguish. We humans don't like to give up hope. And frankly, I for one am glad of it. So long as we have hope, no matter what it is, we can get through the long cold nights.