Rain, Rain Go Away
Well bloggers the rainy season has officially set in. And boy is it setting in in style. With several inches of rain in a single day, and tornadoes hitting the coast lines, and of course the ever present thunder and lightening it's been quite the start to the rain. I"m sitting here at home knowing that I have to go to the store, but half dreading braving the storms. There's something kind of peaceful about the storms though too. Something soothing. It may sound totally crazy but, if you're from the Pacific Northwest storms like this are fairly common. Most people don't mind them to much, and many of us actually enjoy them. While it may be dark and dreary, it's a good time to get those inside projects done, and stay warm with hot soup and coffee.
While I wanted to make soup for dinner, I got over ruled and we are having a new dish called chicken milano. Should be an interesting night of cooking. I'm also going to try making cream puffs. Something I haven't done in a very long time. Back home growing up there was a sweet lady who simply went by Grandma of the Valley. And she was. While all of us "grandkids" were "adopted", we always knew she loved each and every one of us. My little brother and I spent a fair amount of time at her house on a semi regular basis. She taught me the art of making cream puffs. Oh were they delicious. So, in her honor, I shall attempt to make them for the first time again in well over 10 years. They were special requested by Gamer this morning, though I have a feeling that when Sam tastes them, she'll start asking for them for her birthday every year.
Speaking of my sweet little Sam. She is now my big 2 year old as of yesterday. I can't believe how fast the time has gone. It seems like just moments ago when I held her in my arms for the very first time and now she is almost half my size in height. Not in weight by any means as she's pretty dainty. For being so dainty, man is she one tough little cookie. She is so energetic, constantly running to and fro and making mommy's head spin sometimes. We took her out to dinner last night and did cake and presents at home with just mommy and daddy. It was nice to have it just us. We had done an early birthday party a few weeks ago with all the family, so this was nice. Gamer was able to come home early due to the rain flooding out his job site. Which meant we got to spend that much more time together as a family. We had planned on carving pumpkins for her birthday as well but didn't quite make it to the store to pick up the pumpkins. So we are going to do it today instead.
Right now I'm watching Sam and Gamer pick up all the blocks we bought her for her birthday. And by that I mean Daddy holds the bag they go in and Sam is picking them up to put them in. It's pretty adorable. She'll get a gummy bear at the end of it for helping daddy pick up toys. I'm so proud of her. She's learning so much. And so fast too. Some days it's all I can do just to keep up with her.
As to me, well I'm getting by. Still avoiding as much of the world as I possibly can, but I'm getting there. I know there are people who think I'm avoiding them personally, but I'm actually just avoiding everyone. I'm at a point where I just don't want to constantly be fielding the same question over and over again. The "how are you holding up with everything and is there any more news on the baby?" question. As Gamer has stated the last few days, even he has to drag out of me what's going on in my head. I'm not depressed, and I'm pretty content most of the time. I just don't want to think about something that I can't fix, control, or do anything about. While the doctors don't know what is going on, there is nothing that can be done until our little Clay makes his grand entrance into the world. So, why dwell on something that only causes me worry. Thus the I'm still avoiding everyone thing. I really am ok, just still processing through it all. I likely won't rejoin the world much until after Clay is born and I can hold him in my arms safe and sound. I just need to see my baby and snuggle him in my arms to know that he's ok. Until then, I'm content to just live day to day with my little family. Besides, I'm sure I'll be over peopled by the time the holidays are over. I tend to be a bit of a lone wolf by nature. Not that I don't like to socialize but I tend to be a bit of a loner. Even more so when I am going through something. So, like I said, by the end of the holidays I'll probably be ready for a break for a few days. I do like people I promise. I do need to get out and be around people when I'm feeling more normal otherwise I'll go crazy, but that doesn't mean I'm not still a very private person. Oxy-moron I know, but that's part of what makes me who I am.
Well, I think I've chatted enough for today. I'm going to go hide in the laundry room and get laundry done. And then I'll brave the world to go grocery/pumpkin shopping with Sam and Gamer. Much Love to all you out there! Stay dry!
While I wanted to make soup for dinner, I got over ruled and we are having a new dish called chicken milano. Should be an interesting night of cooking. I'm also going to try making cream puffs. Something I haven't done in a very long time. Back home growing up there was a sweet lady who simply went by Grandma of the Valley. And she was. While all of us "grandkids" were "adopted", we always knew she loved each and every one of us. My little brother and I spent a fair amount of time at her house on a semi regular basis. She taught me the art of making cream puffs. Oh were they delicious. So, in her honor, I shall attempt to make them for the first time again in well over 10 years. They were special requested by Gamer this morning, though I have a feeling that when Sam tastes them, she'll start asking for them for her birthday every year.
Speaking of my sweet little Sam. She is now my big 2 year old as of yesterday. I can't believe how fast the time has gone. It seems like just moments ago when I held her in my arms for the very first time and now she is almost half my size in height. Not in weight by any means as she's pretty dainty. For being so dainty, man is she one tough little cookie. She is so energetic, constantly running to and fro and making mommy's head spin sometimes. We took her out to dinner last night and did cake and presents at home with just mommy and daddy. It was nice to have it just us. We had done an early birthday party a few weeks ago with all the family, so this was nice. Gamer was able to come home early due to the rain flooding out his job site. Which meant we got to spend that much more time together as a family. We had planned on carving pumpkins for her birthday as well but didn't quite make it to the store to pick up the pumpkins. So we are going to do it today instead.
Right now I'm watching Sam and Gamer pick up all the blocks we bought her for her birthday. And by that I mean Daddy holds the bag they go in and Sam is picking them up to put them in. It's pretty adorable. She'll get a gummy bear at the end of it for helping daddy pick up toys. I'm so proud of her. She's learning so much. And so fast too. Some days it's all I can do just to keep up with her.
As to me, well I'm getting by. Still avoiding as much of the world as I possibly can, but I'm getting there. I know there are people who think I'm avoiding them personally, but I'm actually just avoiding everyone. I'm at a point where I just don't want to constantly be fielding the same question over and over again. The "how are you holding up with everything and is there any more news on the baby?" question. As Gamer has stated the last few days, even he has to drag out of me what's going on in my head. I'm not depressed, and I'm pretty content most of the time. I just don't want to think about something that I can't fix, control, or do anything about. While the doctors don't know what is going on, there is nothing that can be done until our little Clay makes his grand entrance into the world. So, why dwell on something that only causes me worry. Thus the I'm still avoiding everyone thing. I really am ok, just still processing through it all. I likely won't rejoin the world much until after Clay is born and I can hold him in my arms safe and sound. I just need to see my baby and snuggle him in my arms to know that he's ok. Until then, I'm content to just live day to day with my little family. Besides, I'm sure I'll be over peopled by the time the holidays are over. I tend to be a bit of a lone wolf by nature. Not that I don't like to socialize but I tend to be a bit of a loner. Even more so when I am going through something. So, like I said, by the end of the holidays I'll probably be ready for a break for a few days. I do like people I promise. I do need to get out and be around people when I'm feeling more normal otherwise I'll go crazy, but that doesn't mean I'm not still a very private person. Oxy-moron I know, but that's part of what makes me who I am.
Well, I think I've chatted enough for today. I'm going to go hide in the laundry room and get laundry done. And then I'll brave the world to go grocery/pumpkin shopping with Sam and Gamer. Much Love to all you out there! Stay dry!
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